I took a walk
through the “hood” last night, and, to be honest, it wasn’t that exciting. I
figured I would put that out there right away just in case any of you reading this
thought you were going to read a story about me getting chased by hoodlums and
all the other ‘goblins of the ghetto’.
After working on the
house last night I decided to take Pepper (my yorkie) for a quick walk around
the neighborhood. I began to take the usual route that I take in the direction
of the Hays Street Bridge so I could take in the downtown skyline as I’ve done
so many other times. But then I wondered to myself, “Why do I never walk the
other direction?”
Everyone that knows
me knows that I am not shy about my upbringing on the Eastside of San Antonio. I’m
the third generation of Dillard homeowners on San Antonio’s Eastside. I grew up
living across the street from my grandparents on Lamar and Hudson. I now own a
home in Dignowity Hill. I say all this to make you aware that I am not a newcomer
to this side of town. This is why I had to question my reluctance to walk
toward the area I grew up in, and instead walk in the opposite direction. Am I afraid
of crossing that invisible buffer zone between St. Charles and New Braunfels? Am
I afraid to traverse the zone that switches you from being in a “good and
upcoming neighborhood” to “the bad part of town”? Nope.
One of the perks to
walking around your neighborhood is that you notice a lot of things that you never
would have when in a car. You notice historic features on homes, weird yard
ornaments, and dogs…lots of dogs. No stray dogs though, only fenced in dogs, but,
nonetheless, a lot of them. Of course, along with everything else, you notice a
decline in housing quality overall. Leaning foundations, peeling paint, dirt
yards, shoddy fencing, are all signs that you’ve crossed that line. Another
sign is residents hanging out in their front yards.
Before I even made
it to New Braunfels I was greeted by folks hanging out on their porches or
standing around their car in a driveway. Nothing more than a “What’s up” or “What
kind of dog is that?”, but it was nice that people actually spoke to strangers.
I’ve stood outside of my house in Dignowity Hill speaking with neighbors and when
strangers walk by it seems like we’re reluctant to greet them. It’s not a
dynamic I’m proud of, and I’ve consciously made an effort to speak to or at
least wave to folks who walk by, so it was pleasant having it occur to me when
on someone else’s block.
I crossed New
Braunfels and when walking past Hayes (sic) Food Mart I saw a group of guys
hanging out in the parking lot. I wondered to myself what I would think/assume
if I weren’t familiar with the area. If I was in Alamo Heights or Stone Oak and
saw some guys hanging out in the parking lot I wouldn’t think anything of it. Actually,
I would think it was cool that folks still communed outdoors, instead of via FB
(ironic considering that I’m sharing this via FB). However, if I were a Stone
Oak or Alamo Heights resident taking a walk down Hays Street across New
Braunfels, what would I think? Would I have the same thoughts of it being a
good thing? Would I initiate a hello? Or would I tense up and look at the
ground in fear that the ‘goblins of the ghetto’ were going to attack me?
Guy: “That a yorkie?
Those dogs are expensive man.”
Me: ”Yeah, luckily
we adopted her for free.”
Guy: ”Oh ok, cool. They’re
good dogs though.”
Me: “Yeah, she’s
pretty cool.”
Guy: “That’s good.
Have a good one man.”
Me: ”You too bruh.”
It was a very frightening
interaction to say the least.
After crossing New
Braunfels I noticed how the neighborhood looked the same as it did when I would
ride my bike as a kid. I even remembered where the biggest cracks in the sidewalks
were to prevent myself from tripping, as I did so many times in the past.
After passing by a
few other folks hanging out on their porches, I made it to Gevers. At Gevers
and Hays were two kids, maybe nine or ten years old, and an older guy (assuming
their father/father figure) playing basketball. The kids would shoot the ball,
and the guy would catch it and toss it back to them. Had it not been a Friday,
I would have questioned why the kids were up and outside so late, but, to be
honest, it was nice seeing the interaction at all. I don’t remember many male
adults in my neighborhood, outside of my own father, spending time with their
kids back in the day. I hope this was a sign of that trend being broken.
Finally made it to
the Wheatley Courts and that’s when I realized that all the residents had been
moved out for the upcoming rebuild effort. I’ll admit that it saddened me to
see it empty. While it wasn’t the best place in the world when I was younger,
it felt cold seeing all the lights out and none of the usual chatter or music coming
from the doorways and windows.
I decided to cut
down Hudson and visit the street I grew up on. It was completely different from
what I remember growing up. The houses were in horrible disrepair. My grandparent’s
house looked like it was going to collapse at any second and the house I grew
up in wasn’t what I remembered. It reminded me what can happen when absent owners
rent out to tenants and refuse to properly maintain the property. I didn’t hang
around for long. I made my way up Walters and visited Walter’s Food Mart to
grab a drink for the walk back. When checking out I remembered that I didn’t
have my debit card on me, only a dollar, and was short about fifty cents on my
total. The clerk told me not to worry about it and let me slide. When I was
checking out one of the guys in the store asked me about Pepper. I told him that
he looked familiar, and sure enough, he reminded me that we went to Sam Houston
High together. I thanked the clerk for his generosity and told my former
classmate it was good seeing him and was on my way.
The trip back was
just as uneventful as the initial trip. No muggings, no intimidating looks, no
threats from the ‘goblins of the ghetto’. Instead, two more greetings of “What’s
up” and “Hey” and a quick bathroom break for Pepper (I had a mutt mit).
When I got back to
Dignowity Hill some kids that were having a backyard party yelled, “Hey, you
wanna party?” I think they thought that I would just put my head down, ignore
them, and quicken my pace. Instead,
Me: “Nah, I gotta
work in the morning. But let me introduce myself. I’m Brian.”
Two guys walk up to
the fence and shake my hand.
Them: “I’m Nando and
this is Hypher.”
Me: “Nice meeting
you guys.”
Them: “You live in
the gray house right there?”
Me: “Yeah, I grew up
in the neighborhood and now I own that house. I’d appreciate it if you guys
keep an eye out for me.”
Them: “No problem man.
We don’t allow a lot of that nonsense around here.” (I kinda chuckled on the
inside)
Me: “I appreciate
that.”
There’s more to that
discussion that I won’t get into in this article. I just want to make it clear
that instead of ignoring or laughing them off, I stopped and engaged a
conversation with them. That engagement is what made my walk pleasant. That short
exchange is what makes us a neighborhood into a COMMUNITY and not just the “good
area” that’s a couple blocks away from the “bad side of town”.
So, it turned out
that “the bad part of town” is actually just as nice as the “good part of town”…maybe
nicer. I realized that it’s not so bad crossing that invisible line. I realized
that I was once (and still am at times) one of those ‘goblins of the ghetto’
simply because I existed in an area that others weren’t comfortable being in as
a result of presumptuous reasoning. I also noticed that Pepper attracts a lot
positive attention from my Eastside neighbors.
Footnote: The term ‘goblins
of the ghetto’ was used before by someone when they referenced driving through
my current neighborhood a few years back. I didn’t make it known that I was a native
of the neighborhood they were referencing until after they essentially called
everyone spooks. We had an intense conversation to say the least… I just wanted
to clarify that I can’t take full credit for such cultured terminology.